That is what I am going through also. For the last year and a half I have been a cocksucker a few times but nothing with a woman. I'm divorced for a while now but my ex knew I fantasized about men. Funny thing is I matched with her on a dating site and she sent me a message that I should put more information that would attract women and I told her I was mainly looking for men and she replied "Live your authentic life" I believe she was sincere.