I am an 18 year old young man who has had considerable sexual experience with much older women. But in recent months, after searching the internet and reading of bi sexual experiences, I have developed an almost uncontrollale lust for sex with older men. I would love older men in their fifties and sixties to take my young body and teach me all of their sexual desires and practices. I have a craving to suck old men's cocks and for them to allow me to fuck them, also forthem to suck my cock and eventually fuck me. Even writing this has my ass-hole twitching with desire and my cock is rampant. Things I have read, which are filthy and depraved really excite me and I have the need to satisfy my lust for them. I often lie in bed at night fantasising about a group of old men groping my body, kissing me, and then doing what they want with me. But fantasy is only breaking my heart, I need and want to experience it all. I hope I don't sound like a silly young man, but if only you knew the sexual torture I am going through, then you would understand my craving for men. I want to live my life as a true bi-sexually experienced person. appreciate any thoughts about me.
This event has been the most influential experience in terms of my sexual development and my sex life. It was a month before my 12th birthday, and also about a month after my new big 8 inch adult dick appeared virtually overnight (not literally but not too far from it). Too soon for my initial obsession and love affair with my new big dick to wear off, and also long enough for my new single minded focus on my big dick to spread and turn into natural early adolescent curiosity and attraction to other dicks on other boys and to the rest of the cutest boys at school as well. I had two boy crushes in full gear when this bizarre day came. This is a totally true and also a very long story because I remember so many details clearly more than 40 years later. I want - and I also should and probably need - to write that long version to get it all out from inside me where I've locked it up for so long. But the long version will need to wait for another day. Here is the short version but it's got all you readers need to get what happened to me. My dad's uncle was visiting us that year from the Old Country. He spent about 10 days with my family. Christmas through New Year and a couple more days on both sides. He was about 70 years old and he was extremely ugly looking too. His wife and two kids stayed back at home so he visited us alone - by himself. My dad told me many times that he was his favorite uncle of all. I met him twice before when we visited Europe on vacation. Hello and maybe a few words of small talk if that. But nothing more. His visit was a non-event for me since I was still only 11 and too busy for him and anyone or anything else that got in the way of me jerking off my new and big 8 inch dick. All his visit would mean to me was I had to give up my room for 10 days and sleep on the couch in the den. Which was where our TV was so this was an even trade off for me. This old troll spoke zero English. That plus his advanced age were the two reasons he asked my parents if I could escort him to NY City so he could see the usual tourist sights. I was a smart mature kid and I knew the city well from our many family trips to NYC and my parents trusted me on this so they told me about my great uncle's request and asked if I would do them a big favor and take him to the city for a day. They said neither my mom or dad could do it since they both had to work all that week and New Years was on the weekend that year and he was going back home the following Monday. I wasn't thrilled to be stuck for an entire day with this ugly old troll who was ignoring me totally up to then, but I had nothing else to do and I knew my parents really needed me to fill in for them so that this uncle dude could see all the famous NY landmarks. I said yes sure I'll do it - more out of a sense of duty to my parents and not at all because I wanted to see these same tourist sites I'd already seen many times once again with this old fart. And that's how the old fart uncle from the old country tricked my mom and my dad into me. The stuff about wanting to see all the NY sights was 100% total lie and complete bullshit. As I was to find out myself the next day. The train to the city took about 50 minutes. I tried to chat him up once or twice but he had no interest in that or in me either which I already sensed and confirmed during the ride. We get to the city and we walk up the stairs to street level and it's time for me to play tour guide for this man. Every tourist site was to our left which I said to him and pointed us that way but after I took two steps I looked back at him and he was standing still and pointing to the right. The wrong and totally opposite direction. I tried to tell him that but he cut me off and all he said to me was this: "just follow me and do whatever I tell you to do for the rest of the day." Rude but not shocking from this old asshole. And I had no clue where he was leading us. I found out the answer to that about 10 minutes later. When we got to the Times Square Red Light District. This was back in 1972 when Times Square was the sleazy cheap sex pervert runaway drug addict capital of the world. This was the one and only NY "tourist sight" my great uncle gave a fuck about. For the next 4 or 5 hours he trolled every porn shop and peep show, going inside each one to sit alone in a booth and suck every dick that came his way through the glory holes on both walls to his left and his right. And he dumped me out front of each joint, telling me to stay there and not go anywhere else until he came back out so he could go to the next one and do the same thing. Which he did all fucking day. And I was an 11 year old stranded by my blood relative all fucking day, freezing my ass off in the late December NY city winter cold. Back then every porn shop in Times Square covered its front windows and door with huge sheets of white paper so nobody outside could get a free look at the dirty pictures that covered every wall of every porn joint. But these white sheets didn't cover all of any of the windows - there was always a small uncovered part at the edges and the corners of all of them. Half or one inch and a few of them two inches they left exposed and which a horny man or a curious very horny 11 year old boy with a month old 8 inch dick could peek into. Before that day I'd seen a few Playboys that my friends found in their dad's closets and the pretty girls with big tits inside them - tits, ass, and always wearing panties or a bikini bottom. The truth is I wasn't as innocent as that seems but net net I never saw a girl's pussy before then and definitely no hard core porn of people fucking or sucking or licking. But on this fucked up day I saw everything there is in porn involving people. Five minutes of me standing alone outside porn joint number 1 of that day got me past the initial shock phase and into the curious and horny phase. I looked into every window and stood right in front of every door so I could see as much porn as one inch of window crack plus two seconds of open door would allow me to see. I'll skip all the rest except this: I saw gay porn inside the 4th or 5th porn shop. Black on white gay porn and the black dude was cute and he had a hot long lean body and his dick was fucking huge. 11 inches at least and probably more of that black dick. The sexual thrill almost made me fall over and this bizarre first exposure to gay sex brought out all my gay desires - and all at once. From zero to max in 3 seconds or less. I actually jerked off right there - outdoors with my eyes staring at those gay shots and at that huge black dick, in broad daylight with hundreds or thousands of others walking past me as I rubbed my dick through my pants with my zipper down and my winter jacket covering it all up. Came in my briefs and jerked off a second time 10 minutes later. Traumatic overwhelming abusive age inappropriate bizarre and unbelievably sexually thrilling way for an innocent but horny 11 year old boy with a new big 8 inch dick of his own to be introduced to gay sex and also to his own unrealized before then gay urges still inside him up till then. Sexual initiation by jerking off in public to gay porn on the walls of a sleazy porn shop. In 1972 Times Square!!! If you or anyone you know had an initiation or first introduction to sex as a kid or early teenager that was anywhere close to this bizarre, please drop me a note. Thank you all for reading my short version. The full version will follow and hopefully soon.
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