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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I remember this one guy I was in basic training with who was from West Virginia and one weekend we had off from the rigors of basic, he was telling me about how things were where he came from and a place that he said no one could probably find on any map... and how everyone who lived there was pretty much fucking everyone and whether they were related or not. He told me how the males in his family - and including himself - would almost routinely have sex with all of the females in his family, including his mom and how when any of them reached a certain age, the family would introduce them to sex.

I think he was telling the truth and trying to shock me at the same time but given what I'd grown up with, nah - I wasn't shocked or surprised at all - but I did ask him why he was telling me all of this and his answer wasn't what I expected: He was just very homesick and missed the sexual interaction with his family and everyone else in their little town.

Just more proof that incest was a very real thing; reasons for it to be avoided at all costs and that's no joke but, yeah - still happens. Still, we are so very against this that we've managed to convince ourselves that because we don't believe in it and that it should never happen, that it doesn't and, again, if it does, it's the most horrible thing in the world... and what we choose to believe in this, in reality, changes nothing.

At this point, I have to say that I'm neither for or against it: I just know it happens and I'm not afraid to say anything about it because I accept that it's one of those facts of life we really do not ever want to see the light of day or to see the other truths.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]As petty much everyone knows, the "I" word is deemed to be filthier and nastier than two boys having sex with each other. It's humanity's dirty little secret and one that we will raise all kinds of hell against it and saying that it shouldn't ever happen which, in denying it, we were admitting that it does happen. It's such an uneasy topic of conversation that whenever it comes up, almost everyone talks about how bad and traumatizing it is and it being presumed that kids, especially, were being forced into it and made to endure so many horrors.

And it was true... just not the whole truth of it. I have no shame in saying that I was up to my eyeballs having sex like this and so were a lot of my childhood friends and if there were, say, ten of us who knew about sex like this, one of us didn't like that it was happening to them. Of the forty or so of us in my neighborhood, I'd have to say that maybe ten of us were made to have incestuous sex by someone and they hated it and it fucked them up in some way... but the rest of us? It was having sex and in yet another way that, at least on the surface, would totally make adults lose their shit to even hear rumors or suspicions about it.

But even I learned that they knew about it and some of them were up to their eyeballs - or had been at some time in their life - as well. It's one of those facts of life that is so bothersome that, again, we will speak out more against it and the horrors of it than to really admit that it's always been a "human thing" and that, again, it's not always abusive.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[COLOR=#000000][FONT=Arial]I keep having this dream:
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We walk into a room. Immediately to our right is a hot naked lady on a bar stool with her legs spread open. There is another girl kneeling before her with her face down on it. The lady on the bar stool is moaning and saying “your tongue is amazing!” The other girl says, “your pussy tastes amazing. You’re so wet.” “I like it when you lick my clit like that/”[/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#000000][FONT=Arial]Behind them a guy is standing up with a rock hard cock and a sexy dude is sitting on the floor with his tongue going up and down the shaft. “That feels so good.” A dirty red hair hottie slut crawls over to them and grabs his cock and slaps it on the other guys face saying “you like cock faggot. You like it when I rub his cock all over your face.” Three other party girls walk up to her and start rubbing on her. One get in front of her pussy and starts kissing her legs. The other girls start rubbing her shoulders. [/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#000000][FONT=Arial]To the left of them, an Asian chick with perky boobs is spread eagle on a bar stool with her legs over the arms of the bar stool. She is grabbing her split legs and getting drilled by a buff guy. He is pounding her. She is saying “fuck yes. Harder. Fuck me how you want to be fucked. Fuck me how you want to be fucked. Fuck yes.” And then he arches back and she says cum in me. He grunts. They stay intense, rigid and frozen, looking at each other’s eyes. He then gets out of her and gets on the bar stool next to her. He spreads his legs and puts lube on his fingers. And he starts rubbing lube in his ass with small circles, and then he goes nuts and starts fingering himself. The girl is staring at him touching herself. He starts saying “someone fuck me, fuck me good.” [/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#000000][FONT=Arial]The Asian chick with the perky boobs gets up and walks past him to a mound of 5 guys in a huddled mass. She squats down amid all the grunting and says I love sucking cock that is getting fucked. And out from the mass is a guy on his side with a rock hard dick getting drilled. She sticks out her tongue and starts licking and sucking his dick. [/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#000000][FONT=Arial]Back and the entrance the two girls are now on the floor next to each other. Ohhhh fuck. They have curved double dildo going in and out of them - back and forth. You like that. She kisses the other girl. You love it when you play with my pussy like that you fucking bitch. You hot slut I love it when you fuck me like that. [/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#000000][FONT=Arial]The one guy getting his cock sucked behind the girls, pushes the cocksucker down on the floor so he is face down and ass up. The guy on the floor says fuck me. The other guy pours lube in his ass and then slides his cock into his ass. You like it when I fuck you. [/FONT][/COLOR]

[COLOR=#000000][FONT=Arial]The four girls are all in a frenzy. The red headed girl is laying on the floor with a girl on her face. Another girl has her hands all over her pussy. The girl doing the rubbing is saying, “yeah fuck you dirty fucking slut fuck your clit is so hard. My dirty hands are all over your pussy. I love fucking your wet pussy with my hands. All I am good for is getting you off. I am here to serve your pussy” The fourth brunette girl is rubbing the red hair chick’s breasts and sides. The red hair chick is gyrating and throbbing on the floor. She is in ecstasy. [/FONT][/COLOR]
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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I very much [B]hated[/B] this time of year. And while having both a horny brother and sister was a good thing, sometimes it would get so cool/cold in our apartment that once we were in bed and all nice and warm, getting out of bed to have sex, well, that wasn't gonna happen. The whole building had steam heat and heat delivered by radiators and sometimes the radiators didn't radiate because of air in them that had to be let out and if you know anything about those old-style radiators, you know there was this... thing on them that needed a special tool to open the valve and bleed the air out - and that's provided the stupid boiler didn't break down and had to be fixed and as it often had to be.

Even lying in bed - alone - and jerking off got to be a problem since, um, doing it completely under the covers meant getting jizz all over the sheets and stuff and risking being asked some questions I would have preferred not to be asked or, worst, getting lectured about the evils of playing with myself. Oh, my parents eventually figured out that I was doing just that and it just got on my nerves for one or both of them to keep reminding me not to play with myself like that because it was a bad thing to do and, yup, I was either gonna go blind or grow hair on the palms of my hands.

One fall, it got pretty cold and the stupid boiler had broken down - again - so our parents, and probably against their sensibilities, would tell us that we had to sleep in the same bed so that we could stay warm - but we'd better not even think about "doing anything" other than sleeping and staying warm. I think you can guess how my brother, sister, and I stayed warm, right? Yep - we "snuggled" with each other... and really, really close if you catch my drift. On that particular chilly night - and in the moment when my dick was sliding in and out of my sister's very hot pussy - and my brother's dick was sliding in and out of my ass at the same time, I wondered if our parents really knew what we might be doing; maybe they did and didn't think it was worth getting out of their own nice, warm bed to find out if we were really sleeping... or maybe they didn't know.

But moments like that didn't happen as much as I would have liked them to - and my siblings tended to agree with me on that one. Fall and winter weather just messed up all of the fun.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]There were exceptions and opportunities, of course; it wasn't all that unusual to wind up at a friend's house and we're studying together doing homework or really studying for yet another test. Sometimes, a friend and I were able to sneak some sex in but most of the time? Not even possible since we'd have parents doing their job and making sure we were studying and getting our homework done.

It didn't make things any better to be sitting in a room with someone I very much wanted to have sex with - and they very much wanted to have sex with me - and in between talking about whatever we were studying or our respective homework assignment, he/she or I would be whispering about wanting to do it really bad and then being even more miserable knowing that we didn't dare try to do anything - but that depended on the parents in question but even if they weren't the type to keep constantly checking to see if we were doing what we were supposed to be doing, time became a factor and there just wasn't enough time to do much of anything.

When with a guy, shit - we often didn't have time to pull our dicks out and jerk off in front of each other - what a total bummer! Making things even worse was the fact that during the school year, overnight and/or weekend sleepovers were far and few between. During the week, sure - an overnighter was out of the question because of school and it was very rare for one to happen; there was a better chance of spending at least one day of the weekend if not the entire weekend with someone but, as the weather started getting cooler and cooler, shit - parents weren't all that likely to send us out to play unless we were seriously getting on their nerves being stuck in the house. And that was fine... except the places we routinely went to so we could screw ourselves silly were vacant apartment buildings and, well, they got unbearably cold since they had no heat and, most of the time, didn't even have windows to cut down on the cool/cold air.

Trying to do the nasty while being mostly still dressed was not all that easy to do. Just pulling your dick out so it could be sucked was more comfortable that pulling your pants down so some fucking could be done and girls? Forget it! No way they were gonna expose themselves just so they could get the dick they wanted or to even have their delicious pussies eaten![/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]As a youngster who was now up to his eyeballs having sex with boys and girls, this time of year used to bug the shit out of me. The new school year would be off and running and having to go to school was "bad enough" but with summer gone, it seriously cut down on the opportunities to have sex!

Okay, sure: As I've written before, I happened to live with a couple of people who didn't mind one bit having sex with me and insisted on it and that was all well and good... but not really being able to go out and hang with the gang - because of homework and sometimes the weather, well, keeping it in-house ramped up the risk of getting busted.

When I crawled out of bed this morning, I had this on my mind because it felt just like one of the many fall days when, back then, the need and urge to have sex with someone was very strong and powerful... but, yeah, it was going to school and being around a lot of the kids who loved to get together to suck and fuck and eat pussy... and we all felt some kind of way to be sitting in a classroom when we'd rather be at one of our hideouts, being naked, and just wearing ourselves out having sex.

As such, I'd go about my school day being pretty miserable and to the point where I'd often be asked if I liked fall weather or not - and many assumed that I did just because I was born in late September and the first day of fall tended to fall on my birthday. It wasn't that and my least favorite time of the year was - and is - actually winter but I was miserable because I couldn't have sex as much as I'd been having during summer vacation and all that nice, hot, weather.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Scariest moment of my life but one that, being real about it, I know has happened in the past and is still happening because, despite the rules, that's just how humans can be about sex and it's one of the truths that we don't want to acknowledge: Anyone - everyone - is fair game even if they don't think they are and now it's just a matter of doing... or not doing and there are some things that, again, just shouldn't be done but not everyone sees it like that.

All of this is a truth that's hard to take in even with the advantage I have... but it's a truth that's hard to ignore because while there is being straight, bi, and even gay, it's still sex and related things like love and no one is really as immune to it as we're supposed to be. My advantage proved to me that if you wanna have sex, you don't have to chase down a girl to get it... because there are a lot of guys who'd be more than happy to have sex with you and, yeah, some of them just might be someone you're not supposed to have sex with - and you probably wouldn't even if you knew they were game... it's just the truth says that you could if you and they wanted to...

Just don't get caught.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I've been asked if I really have no guilt or shame about any of the sex I've ever had and I actually do but the advantage taught me that it doesn't make much sense to be ashamed or guilty over something that I wanted to do, that and, again, knowing that once you do it, you can't undo it so while it's normal for me to say that, yeah - I shouldn't have been having so much fun fucking my sister, it doesn't ever change the fact that I did have fun and the fact that she did, too. I knew I shouldn't be having sex with any boys and knew I'd broken all of the rules about that and it might be true that one day I'm going to die and I'm going to hell for that alone if nothing else...

And I just shrug to myself about it because, again, I wanted to do it and I did it and nothing is ever going to change any of that and I'm not ever going to act like none of it happened or, like others tend to do, put up a brick wall between what I did when I was younger and what I do as an adult or tell myself that lie that I didn't know what I was doing... because I did know... and because things happened when they did that gave me the advantage I enjoy today and one that I've never regretted having. Did it make me some kind of perverted sex fiend? I used to think so but then I'd look at everything I learned and came to the conclusion that I was - am - just one of many people who found out that sex isn't just the way everyone says it's supposed to be - it's much more than than that and I had the advantage of finding that out early on.

Anyone. Anything. Anywhere... but with my intelligence in charge of those things. My advantage taught me that just because you can do it doesn't mean you should always do it, that there are some people you just say no to and that's that. My biggest scare came when my only daughter asked to speak to me one day and I got the shock of my life to hear her say, "If you love me like you say you do, how come we're not trying to have a baby?" My advantage? Well, it didn't prepare me for that one and I almost literally hurt myself making sure to get that thought out of her head and explaining why that would be a very bad idea - and at the risk of telling her that, sure, I loved her with all my heart and soul... but not that much. Never that much. I know I lost some Brownie points with her that day and I don't regret losing them - because I had to take that loss but, again, my advantage did teach me that there's got to be a point that should never be crossed and that was a huge one I got hit with. Many years later and with her an adult with her own children, she brought that moment up - and I had hoped she had forgotten it but she hadn't and the scary part? She meant it; she told me that she was ready to have sex with me right then and there and, yeah, I broke her heart when I said no - but she understood why I did. "I still wanted to anyway, but I'm glad you said no; I felt that you really didn't love me but I figured out that you said no because you did love me."[/SIZE][/FONT]