[SIZE=3][FONT=verdana]To backtrack just a bit in time, when HIV/AIDS made itself known, there was a lot of trepidation and fear to go along with the usual STDs. Since they were saying, at the time, that gay IV drug users were more likely to have this virus, you'd think that having any kind of sex with men would have been avoided like the plague it turned out to be... and it wasn't so much. The experts had determined that while you could catch it by fucking someone - and in the ass specifically - there was no indication that you could catch it by sucking dick and letting "bodily fluids" into your mouth [/FONT][I]unless[/I][FONT=verdana] you had cavities, gum disease, or other scrapes and abrasions in your mouth that would allow something to have access to your blood stream. So while a lot of guys cut back on fucking, all that did was increase the number of blow jobs being asked for and given... and loads of sperm being swallowed. Being the child of science I'd always been, I poured over the research being done and discovered that saliva contains some pretty powerful enzymes that were designed to start the process of breaking down food so that the hydrochloric acid in our stomach could finish the job of breaking it down... and those processes were literally death for the HIV virus or anything else that was possible to catch if your mouth wasn't all that healthy. Hmm. Even armed with this information, it didn't take being as smart as I was to know that the best way to avoid this [then] life-threatening situation was to be very, very picky about who I was going to suck and swallow; I learned to look for sores, cuts and scrapes on the dick to be sucked and if I saw any, nope - sorry but I can't and you'll just have to settle for being jerked off. Pulling on a guy's dick was always an important thing to see if the pre-cum that oozed out was crystal clear - and like it was supposed to be - or anything other than crystal clear and if it wasn't, the dick wasn't getting sucked and I didn't care how much the guy would pitch a bitch. A very horny cock sucker... but not a stupid one.[/FONT][/SIZE]
[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]Interviewing potential dicks to suck on the Internet was interesting because guys not only wanted to know if I sucked dick but definitely wanted to know if I swallowed. I even figured out why it was so damned important; I'd been sucked by a lot of guys who didn't like to swallow and there was, at least for me, a huge difference in the way it would feel when I came, leading me to believe that we - guys - like it better when we can cum [I]inside[/I] and kinda not so much when we couldn't - except when jerking off and even then I had noticed a difference on how cumming felt just shooting it wherever it was gonna go and when I was cumming inside someone - mouth, pussy, or ass. Guys expected and demanded it which for me wasn't a problem unless I knew his shit was gonna taste awful... and your shit had to be pretty raunchy for me not to swallow it. I knew about how taste buds worked and that things tasted different depending on where on your tongue you were tasting things - bitter, sweet, salty, and sour; sometimes, eh, a guy's shit was a bit funky-tasting but if I timed it right, when he'd start to cum, I'd take his dick down as far as I dared to so that his cum didn't come in contact with my taste buds so much. That and it felt... weirdly good to feel a guy's cock deep in my mouth and throat and feel his dick pumping away and his spunk just sliding on down and not tasting it so much. Every now and then I'd run into a guy who's spunk tasted really, really good... and after swallowing it, damn - I'd find myself with a bad case of the runs within minutes. After the first time that happened, I needed to know why and learned that seminal fluid is an alkali and, as such, could upset the water balance in my stomach and guts and when that happened, yep - you get the runs. The more bitter a guy's stuff tasted, the greater the chance that I'd be sitting on the toilet for a few at some point and I just accepted that this was gonna happen and there wasn't much I could do about it and more so when not swallowing it wasn't really an option. There were times when I'd blow a guy with the sure intention on swallowing his load... and decide that I'd rather watch him shoot because, um, it's kinda cool looking. Sometimes, when I chose not to swallow, some guys would get kinda bent because I didn't and griping about how I was supposed to swallow it and that I had to... and I'd get them straightened out in a hurry by telling them that me swallowing their shit was my decision and if ya didn't like it, well, too bad - you've already shot your load and unless I feel like doing it again, there's no telling if I will swallow it or not but since you felt the need to say something to me about it, guess what's probably not gonna happen if I blow you again?[/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]As I remember, the first time I didn't swallow a guy's load, I was 35. I had very much learned that some guys? Yuck - their cum tasted like shit but since I was expected to swallow it, I would until, one day, I was sucking some guy's dick and his pre-cum tasted irony and sour and I'd learned that if a guy's pre-cum tasted bad, the rest of it would taste bad. This guy's shit was downright horrible and I had made up my mind that not only was I not going to swallow it, I wasn't going to let him cum in my mouth at all. So when I thought he was getting close, I stopped sucking him and used my hand on him until he busted... and there was a part of me that was very sad to see those jets of cum shooting out of the head of his dick and landing on my hand and on him (and some got on the floor). He didn't even ask me why I didn't let him finish in my mouth... but the next guy I didn't swallow for did. "Your shit didn't taste good at all," I had said, remembering the rather acidic taste of his pre-cum. I had learned - and because I wanted and needed to know - that a guy's sperm was going to taste like whatever he was eating and drinking and even smoking and that just by tasting his seminal fluid - his pre-cum - that would determine whether or not I was going to swallow when he came, let alone let him cum in my mouth... but the fact remains that, say, 8 out of 10 times, if I was sucking dick, I was swallowing everything the guy had to offer when he came. One out of the two remaining times I wouldn't swallow or let it my mouth was because that first taste of pre-cum told me his shit wasn't going to taste good... and the other time, well, it didn't get swallowed because I didn't get a chance to get his dick into my mouth. Quite a few times I'd get as far as licking his knob or his shaft and - oops! Sperm would be all over the place and a few times, I'd get shot in the face, something I did not like at all but, okay, accidents happen... but there were a few guys who's idea of a good time was wanting to shoot their load in my face and I made it clear that if you do that, you're going to regret it and, besides: I didn't agree to blow you just for you to put your spunk anywhere other than in my mouth. [/SIZE][/FONT]
[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]The first time I swallowed sperm was a purely reflexive thing. One moment, all I had in my mouth was the head of his dick and my own saliva and the next thing I knew, there was some other [I]stuff[/I] in my mouth; it was thick, salty and sweet and there was a lot of it and it was giving me a problem so I swallowed it and kept swallowing until there was no more [I]stuff [/I]in my mouth. It tasted pretty good! I could feel it in my stomach, which felt a little queasy but not enough to make me throw up. I licked my lips and I could taste it there, too... and I knew I was [I]really[/I] on to something. Sucking on my friends' dicks, well, that felt good but there was none of the stuff to be tasted; I can't really say that I was disappointed but, then again, I guess I was but, um, the next time I had a grown up dick in my mouth? Plenty of stuff to be swallowed and tasted and even if I sucked the same adult dick again, hmm - the stuff didn't always taste the same! Sometimes it was really salty; sometimes it was rather sweet and sometimes so bitter that before my brain could really register how bitter it tasted, I'd swallowed it anyway - yuck. Sometimes it was really thick; sometimes really thin and sometimes there was a lot of it and sometimes not a whole lot. Sucking my friends - and when they got around to shooting the baby-making stuff (aka, da jizz) - was a lot more fun because they could shoot it in my mouth for me to swallow and do it again minutes later... and do it again and every time it tasted good and not that nasty bitter taste I didn't like all that much. At first, I couldn't understand why some of the fellas didn't want to swallow jizz. You could shoot it in their mouth... and they'd spit it out and say that either it tasted nasty or it didn't feel right in their mouth. Oh, well - their loss. Between the ages of 9 and 16, I don't recall there ever being a time when I gave a guy a blow job and he came in my mouth and I didn't swallow it. To me, it didn't make sense not to. I was finding that there were two kinds of guys: Those who swallowed and those who didn't... and the guys like me who swallowed were the more popular ones and especially with the other "old guys" - teenagers - who I'd find out would come looking for me because they somehow found out that if I sucked their dick, I was gonna swallow their jizz. That seemed to be a very important thing and I didn't know why it was so important; all I knew - all I really cared about - was there were a lot of guys who were very happy to give me sperm to swallow. While sucking their dicks was all that and then some, being able to swallow their stuff was even better and for me, they couldn't shoot it fast enough to make me happy but, um, sometimes they did and since I didn't expect it, I'd sometimes get pretty pissed off because I didn't get a chance to swallow it all, damn them.[/SIZE][/FONT]
[SIZE=3][FONT=verdana]The guy I've been mentoring for a few years now often tells me how much it bothers him when his lovers call him daddy and more so when they're older than he is (and by quite a few years). He's asked me why they do that and have asked if it was possible that their father made them gay... and I've allowed that it is possible (and because I know that's how some of the gay men I knew became gay) but if he really wanted to know, ask them why they keep calling him daddy.[/FONT] [FONT=verdana]He found that it's because he's a take-charge kind of guy when it comes to having sex with them and, apparently, when he fucks them, it's with authority and who has as much or more authority than a father? Many of his lovers are bottoms and more than a bit submissive... and, as he tells me, are amazing cock suckers. We often talk about this "authority figure" stuff and whether or not, again, dad was laying the pipe to these guys or it was something they wanted but couldn't get... or maybe there was a lack of authority from their dad so when they run into a guy like my protégé, calling him daddy - and as a form of respect, if you will, just makes sense to them. He better understands this - I think - but it still bothers him to be called a sexual kind of father figure and I understand why it does - and more so since it doesn't sit well with myself, either but, yeah, I understand it and I just accept that if a guy has daddy issues because dad was having sex with him, it just was what it was and regardless to what our morality says about it. We call it abuse but it has, for me, begged the question that if a guy was having sex with his dad and didn't feel abused - and because he was all for it - is it really abuse even though the law says it is? A very sticky and potentially ugly situation and, again, don't shoot the messenger on this one. [/FONT][/SIZE]
[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I thought that this was just happening where I lived... then found out that, like everything else when it came to boys having sex with boys, it was all over the place! I'd met this one guy at the local YMCA and we somehow got to talking about having sex with other boys and decided that it would be a great idea if the two of us could get together and do it to each other. He lived in what we called the "rich people's neighborhood" and he and his family lived in a really nice house and all that good stuff. When I went to visit him, we went straight to his room and immediately started having sex and, wow - he was really good at it! While taking a break, we were talking about each other being good at sucking and fucking and he just came out and told me that he learned how to suck cock and fuck... with his dad. I was shocked because my thinking that this only happened where I lived was wrong. He even bragged about talking his father into it and, honestly, I didn't believe him but thought that if this was like the guys in my neighborhood said, it was more like his dad wanted to do it to him and he was all for it. Another guy told me that he waited for his dad to get drunk... then gave his dad a blow job and told me that he had wanted to suck his father's dick for the longest time and took advantage of the situation. Not only that but he said that every time his dad got drunk and they were the only ones at home, dad would get his dick sucked. I was shocked because this was more proof that what I saw and knew about in my neighborhood wasn't the only place this was happening. And, yeah... he was one hell of a cock sucker. As I grew up and would run into guys, it didn't surprise me all that much to find out that a lot of them got their first taste of dick from a father or step-father. Illegal and immoral as anything can be... but a real fact of life that some guys experienced and just like all things M2M, a fact of life we'd rather not say anything about other than to say how totally fucked up this is. Ran into a lot of guys who asked if I'd be their daddy... and it would make me wonder why; were they one of those guys who was having sex with their dad... or were they one of those "other guys" who wanted to have sex with their dad but never did? Or was it just a role playing game that appealed to them for some reason? I'd have sex with some guys and they'd call me "daddy" and, to be honest, it used to bother the shit out of me big time but I learned to not let it bother me once I learned that being called "daddy" was, for them, a way to convey respect for my age and level of experience. I mean, I'd never call another guy daddy and I do have a problem with some guys whose idea of sexy communication is asking me to call them daddy... yeah, not gonna do that but, also yeah, I kinda understand it a little and sometimes not at all; at the end of my day, it doesn't really make sense to feel some kind of way about it; maybe they either got dad's cock or maybe they wanted it and couldn't get it; maybe, like some guys, dad was a very strict kind of dude who was more about teaching them how to be a man and not so much the kind of guy who did father and son things, you know, like sports, fishing, stuff like that and things that father and sons are supposed to do.[/SIZE][/FONT]
[SIZE=3][FONT=verdana]Were the guys with daddy issues cock suckers? They all were and very eagerly at that. As I commented, in today's terms, they were equally eager bottoms who weren't all that interested (if at all) in being the one to do the fucking but they'd fuck because, well, everyone else is fucking and no one wanted to be called out as a chicken.[/FONT] [FONT=verdana]The guys with the "bad issues," I thought later on, were - let's say - cock suckers on a mission and their mission was to redeem themselves; the psychology behind this, I'd later learn, is pretty fascinating because we tend to think of these things as being destructively traumatizing and as a matter of course... but these guys weren't the kind of kids who, due to their trauma, always got into trouble, did bad in school, stuff like that and, again, when the fellas got together to have sex - or in a one-on-one setting - they had no problems joining in.[/FONT] [FONT=verdana]I knew it was bad... but was it really as bad as we'd been hearing?[/FONT] [FONT=verdana]I watched one of my friends have sex with his dad - some really scary shit! We were playing in his room and his dad came in and said, "It's that time and you know what you did!" I'm thinking that, oh, shit - he's gonna get a beating for something and I looked at my friend with great sympathy and expected to see fear in his eyes... but he was smiling! His dad looked at me with that "You'd better not say anything!" look, pulled out his dick and my friend literally tripped over himself rushing to suck it. All I could do was sit there and look as my friend sucked his dad's dick and then laid down so he could get fucked.[/FONT] [FONT=verdana]And the whole time, my friend was deliriously happy. When his dad got done and left, my friend told me that this was a game they'd been playing for a long time and that it was [I]his[/I] idea to play this game. I think about that today and it gives me chills and not in a good way but at that moment? I admit that I came in my underwear and I did feel very jealous. Don't shoot the messenger - I'm just telling you what I know. We went back to playing and as if what I'd witnessed never happened and later, we had sex with each other and he had told me that his dad knew he was having sex with his friends and, I guess, it wasn't a big deal. Later, I'd realize that not only were these incidents a lot more common than we care to believe, the guys others would say were badly abused and traumatized were anything but that; they welcomed this attention and those who did said that, believe it or not, they had a good relationship with their father. I'd later learn that even back then, there were parents - and fathers in particular - who believed that if their son was going to learn about sex, it was best that they learned about it at home rather than to be out in the street and learning and, potentially, getting into serious trouble.[/FONT][/SIZE]
[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]A member posed the question of whether male cock suckers have daddy issues and one of the things I knew of growing up was there were quite a few guys in our "Horny Boys Club" who got introduced to dick by their dad or step-dad. Sordid shit, I know, but it was what it was back then so don't shoot the messenger. In my last comment about this, I said that most of the guys I knew who got introduced this was were well-adjusted and showed no signs of being traumatized; indeed, the majority of them confessed to wanting something to happen and, sometimes, because they'd gotten a look at dad's dick and, I'd have to guess, getting the fires lit within them. At the time - and, again, please don't shoot the messenger - we'd sit around and talk about our first time and who we had it with and for some guys, you could tell that they were envious or jealous of the guys who had their dad's dick for their first experience and many of us - and read this as those of us who didn't have this first experience - thought it was pretty cool and, no, don't even ask me why we did. We just did. There were four guys in particular that I knew for a fact that when they weren't having sex with the rest of us, their need for dick was being taken care of by their dad and maybe it was a coincidence that they were the only child. One of our cadre was as gay as a three-dollar bill but I knew - even if no one else did - he was gay because he had two sisters who treated him like he was their sister and I knew his dad was giving it to him because he told me and his sisters confirmed it. It's not to say that none of us knew that this was a bad thing because we did; there were a few guys who wound up with daddy issues and things weren't all that okay with them emotionally but, strangely, when it came to having sex with the rest of the fellas, well, you wouldn't have known of any trauma. They didn't like having to give it to their dads but they went along with it since, in those days, their punishment for refusing would have been a lot worse. This one guy "disappeared" for a long time and we had wondered where he was since we knew that his family hadn't moved. When we saw him again - maybe two weeks after the last time we saw him - he told us that his dad wanted to fuck him and he said no... and got beaten really bad. I don't know about the other guys but being the smart kid I was, it wasn't hard for me to understand why the guys getting dad's dick would just go along with it and did the best they could to deal with the situation.[/SIZE][/FONT]
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