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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]He's really going for it and he stopped for a moment to ask me if I liked what he was doing... and I told him I wasn't sure so he went right back to eating my ass like I'd eat a woman's pussy. Oh, my god - he's licking, sucking, driving his tongue into my hole... and I'm still trying not to laugh; I'm holding the laughter in and my body is shaking with that effort... but I thought he mistook my body movements to be me enjoying what he was doing - so he really started going for it.

It stopped being funny... but it didn't start to feel good so much. I wanted him to stop munching on my ass and slide his dick in but he's having a lot of fun eating my ass, moaning, groaning and digging his fingers into my cheeks hard enough to make it uncomfortable as he tried to spread my cheeks apart and more than they were gonna get spread.

Just as I was about to tell him to stop, I hear him really groaning with his face buried in my ass - and the next thing I feel is him not eating my ass... and his cum is now landing on my buttcheeks.

And I was pissed. I roll over and he's lying there gasping for air and, I guess, feeling pretty good and I wanted to slap that happy look off of face.

"Sorry about that," he said, grinning at me. "Your asshole was so good for me to eat that I couldn't stop from cumming! Let me rest up for a bit and we can fuck each other, okay?"

My dick was rock hard, my balls were starting to ache... and I was still pissed about not getting that dick in my ass so I told him, "Nope - not gonna happen; I'm leaving after I take care of this."

I wrapped my hand around my dick and jerked off; he tried to suck me but I pushed him away and told him, "You were so busy licking my asshole and didn't want to fuck me... so you can watch me get myself off!"

I busted a nut - some of it got on him - but I could easily tell he wasn't happy with how this was turning out. I was... rude; I wiped my hand clean on his sheets, gave him my most "hateful" look, got dressed and was getting ready to leave.

"But, didn't you like having your ass eaten?" he asked.

"No, not really; I don't know what you expected me to feel but all I wanted to do was laugh - that's how weird that shit felt," I said. "I'm outta here; let me know when you really wanna fuck."

He never did let me know and I was fine with that. I had time to sit and think about whether or not I really did like having my ass eaten or not and it wouldn't be for another couple of years when I'd get my ass eaten again - and I decided that it was okay but not really all that.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I remember the first time a guy ate my ass and it was the weirdest thing I'd experienced. We'd run into each other, started talking, things turned to sex... then boy/boy sex... and we go to his place and things were going "as usual" as we kinda cuddled - licking and sucking on nipples, ears, necks, before turning our attention to each other's cock. I knew he was gonna fuck me then be fucked by me and I was so very hot and bothered - I wanted him inside me and he couldn't get there fast enough - but I didn't want to put any pressure on him.

He sucks me off, holding my dick deep in his mouth as I lost my load and I had refrained from sucking him off so he could fuck me; he tells me to turn over and I'm thinking, "Oh, yeah... this is what I've been waiting for!"

He spreads my ass cheeks and I'm shivering in anticipation, expected to feel the coolness of the lube that was sitting on his side table - and the next thing I feel is his tongue probing my hole! I remember my body stiffening for a moment as my brain worked out what he was doing - he's licking and sucking my asshole and it was such a weird and unexpected sensation that it was all I could do not to start laughing.[/SIZE][/FONT]

My 2019 reading list:
Green Odyssey - Philip Jose Farmer
Where The Hell Is Tesla - Rob Dirks
The Gone-Away World - Nick Harkaway
Don’t Touch The Blue Stuff - Rob Dirks
The Accidental Time Machine - Joe Haldeman
Dragon’s Egg - Robert L. Forward
An Absolutely Remarkable Thing: A Novel - Hank Green
Stars Uncharted - S.K. Dunstall
Twenty Thousand Leagues Under the Sea - Jules Verne
The Strange Case Of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde - Robert Lewis Stephenson
Revelation Space - Alastair Reynolds
Reincarnation Blues: A Novel - Michael Poore
Enlightenment Now: The Case for Reason, Science, Humanism and Progress - Steven Pinker
Chasm City- Alastair Reynolds
Nova - Samuel R. Delaney classic
Stars In My Pocket Like Grains Of Sand - Samuel R. Delany
Redemption Ark - Alastair Reynolds
The Great Wall Of Mars - Alastair Reynolds
Gate Crashers - Patrick S. Tomlinson meh
Tiamat’s Wrath - James S.A. Corey
How To Be A Stoic - Massimo Pigliucci
Absolution Gap - Alastair Reynolds
War of the Spheres - B.V. Larson and James D. Millington
Galactic North - Alastair Reynolds
Diamond Dogs And Turquoise Days- Alastair Reynolds
Salvation - Peter F. Hamilton
House of Suns - Alastair Reynolds
The History of the Ancient World - Susan Wise Bauer (great)
Outland - Dennis E. Taylor
Merlin’s Gun - Alastair Reynolds
Alien III - movie script - William Gibson
Fall, Or Dodge In Hell: A Novel - Neal Stephenson (meh)
DMT: The Spirit Molecule - Rick Strassman
QuickSilver - Neal Stephenson
Pushing Ice - Alastair Reynolds
The Confusion - Neal Stephenson
Thud! - Terry Pratchett
Gigi Make Paradox, Where The Hell Is Tesla, Book 3 - Rob Dircks (meh)
The Prefect - Alastair Reynolds
Elysium Fire - Alastair Reynolds
Revenger - Alastair Reynolds
Shadow Captain - Alastair Reynolds
Terminal World - Alastair Reynolds
The System Of The World - Neal Stephenson
Blue Remembered Earth - Alastair Reynolds
On The Steel Breeze - Alastair Reynolds
Poseidon’s Wake - Alastair Reynolds
Cryptonomicon - Neal Stephenson
Octavia Gone (Alex Benedict, #8) - Jack McDevitt (meh)
Troika / The One Man And The Martian Sea - Alastair Reynolds
Contact - Carl Sagan
Autonomous: A Novel - Annalee Newitz
Wolverine: The Long Night - Marvel and Stitcher
Barbary Station - R. E. Stearns
Velocity Weapon - Megan O’Keefe meh
Cage Of Souls - Adrian Tchaikovsky
Mutiny On Vesta - R. E. Stearns
PlanetSide - Michael Mammay
SpaceSide - Michael Mammay
How To: Absurd Scientific Advice For Common Real-World Problems - Randal Munroe
The Algebraist - Ian M. Banks
The Knowledge: How To Rebuild Our World From Scratch - Lewis Dartnell
The Wall - John Lanchester
The Milk Lady Of Bangalore - Shoba Narayan
The History of the Decline and Fall of the Roman Empire, Volume 3 - Edward Gibbon
Quantum Space - Douglas Philips - fun
Accelerando - Charles Stross - funny
Early Riser - Jasper Fforde
Quantum Void - Douglas Philips
Pandemic - A.G. Riddle
Genome - A.G. Riddle
Futuristic Violence And Fancy Suits - David Wong
Departure - A.G. Riddle - meh
Cold Storage - David Koepp
World War Z - Max Brooks
The Hydrogen Sonata (Culture #10) - Ian M. Banks
Finder - Suzanne Palmer
New Eden - Kishore Tipinemi
The Atlantis Gene - A.G. Riddle
The Atlantis Plague - A.G. Riddle
The Origins Of Everything In 100 Pages (More Or Less) - David Bercovici
The War Of The Worlds - Radio Recreation- H. G. Wells (L.A. Theater adaption)
The Atlantis World - A.G. Riddle
The Three-Body Problem - Cixin Liu
The Dark Forest - Cixin Liu
The Fifth Elephant, Discworld 24 - Terry Pratchett
Small Gods, Discworld 13 - Terry Pratchett
Mort, Discworld 4 - Terry Pratchett
Death’s End - Cixin Liu
Night Watch, Discworld 29 - Terry Pratchett
Guards! Guards!, Discworld 8 - Terry Pratchett
A Short History Of Nearly Everything - Bill Bryson
Men At Arms, Discworld 15 - Terry Pratchett
Feet Of Clay, Discworld 19 - Terry Pratchett
Jingo, Discworld 21 - Terry Pratchett
Reaper Man, Discworld 11 - Terry Pratchett
Breakthrough - Michael C. Grumley
Soul Music, Discworld 16 - Terry Pratchett
Auboror - James S.A. Corey
Leap - Michael C. Grumley (#100)
Hogfatherm Discworld 29 - Terry Pratchett
This Is How You Lose The Time War - Amal El-Mohtar, Max Gladstone
Walking to Aldeberon - Adrian Tchaikovsky - fun
Entanglement - Gerald Kilby
The Enceladus Mission - Brandon Q. Morris
Entropy - Gerald Kilby
The Thief Of Time, Discworld 26 - Terry Pratchett
Equal Rites, Discworld 3 - Terry Pratchett
Evolution - Gerald Kilby
The Light Brigade - Kameron Hurley - ok
Witches Abroad, Discworld 12 - Terry Pratchett
The Stars Are Legion - Kameron Hurley
Lords and Ladies, Discworld 14 - Terry Pratchett
Colony One Mars - Gerald M. Kilby - meh
Maskerade, Discworld 18 - Terry Pratchett
Carpe Jugulum, Discworld 23 - Terry Pratchett
The Titan Probe - Brandon Q. Morris
Sourcery, Diskworld 5 - Terry Pratchett - #118

Sexuality is something I feel I had struggled with all my life. Born in the 70's, all I wanted to be is normal like everyone else so I denied and suppressed anything that wasn't considered the norm, however feelings and desires kept popping in to my mind (both waking and sleeping fantasies), some of which I was happy to have, others, ashamed and it lead to an unhappy and confusing life, both sexually and mentally. I went through stages thinking I could be gay, others, straight, but didn't know what I was and it never occurred that I was somewhere in between as back then you were either straight or gay.

Since puberty I think I always realised deep down that I wasn't straight but realisation and acceptance are very much two different things. Once I made the decision to accept and embrace my sexual orientation, all the events and feelings throughout my life suddenly made sense. They should've made sense straight away but the stigma and lack of acceptance around bisexuality and basically any orientation that isn't straight was a contributing factor and still is today so like many, I remain in the closet.

Self acceptance is important for one's mental health and I am better for doing so. I'm far more happy now than I've been in a very long time. Accepting didn't mean I had to tell anyone it was just acknowledging that which most with same sex tendancies have felt for a long time, different and there's nothing wrong with being different. Everyone is different. Acceptance removed the shame and guilt I felt for having these desires or after I masturbated to same sex fantasies or gay porn. The shame was very real for me but I realised you can only fight nature for so long, nature always wins. I was born this way.

What was needed for me to start the journey, and it has been a journey was a catalyst. My catalyst was feeling a strong attraction to a friend but what helped me accept my sexuality was to put it all in writing, from the beginning to the end, answer questions of my sexual desires and feelings and what I want from my remaining years truthfully and once I did so, it wasn't difficult to see. I thought I would feel different and in some ways I do, I feel normal. Bisexual is my normal.

I love being bisexual, it gives me a sense of pride I've not had. I feel truly lucky. I believe there are many more men and women stuck in limbo just like I was who will hopefully one day find their feet. Everyone's journey is different but I hope this helps someone.

[SIZE=3][FONT=verdana]My protege and I talk about this a lot... and he cracks me up when he talks about what he prefers and I'm not sure he doesn't understand why I don't have preferences other than being able to get my dick hard and it winds up getting soft. We talked about his preference for Black and other non-white men and how this preference pretty much guarantees that he's not going to have all the sex that's possible for him to have.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]He said to me, "But you like white guys!" and I said, "Yes - they taste better for some reason... doesn't mean I wouldn't suck a Black guy's cock - and you gotta know I've done that a lot - or any other guy's cock and no matter what the color of his skin is. It's really about what kind of person he is and, okay, I guess you can say that I "prefer" someone I can get along with - but that's not a preference - that's just common sense."[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]Do I prefer to swallow? C'mon, really? Fact: I've swallowed more sperm than I have spit out and, for me, if you're gonna suck a guy's dick and make him cum, uh, why not swallow it, you know, if that's what you feel like doing? And sometimes, I just don't feel like it or want to - maybe I just want to get him to the point of release and watch the sperm flowing out of him... and get a "big head" because I made him do it.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]What positions do I prefer? Whichever one works and gets the job done and provided I can physically tolerate it. Again, it's common sense to me wanting to be comfortable but understanding that I might not be... because sex can be pretty damned uncomfortable. It just is what it is. Now, hmm, being in the missionary position isn't fun for me; I learned a long time ago that my legs and hips just "refuse" to work that way... but I've been fucked in that position anyway and it's been good or bad - nothing unusual happening her. If a guy say, "Turn over..." okay, that works because it just works and it might be uncomfortable.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]But it's still the sex I prefer.[/FONT]

[FONT=verdana]Do women suck cock better or do men suck better? Yes. And no. Not everyone can master sucking dick and I've had amazing blow jobs from both men and women. Do I prefer one over the other? No - where's the sense in that? I love having my dick sucked... so why would I limit my opportunities to be sucked by having a preference that I know doesn't make any real difference?[/FONT][/SIZE]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]I learned to be color-blind in this just as I learned not to be superficial. The size of a guy's dick doesn't mean a damned thing to me - it's what he was born with - duh. Otherwise, what kind of person is he? That's not so much of a preference as it is, to me, just common sense given that one would not be of a mind to have sex with someone they're at odds with and at every level... but, yeah, sure - I can have sex with someone I don't like because it's not really about them so much as it is about having sex.

Which is the thing I prefer. Do I prefer a FWB? Interesting in establishing an LTR? Uh, not really - whatever happens is gonna happen and now it's a matter of whether or not - bluntly and honestly - I wanna be bothered with it. If that's the way it happens, fine; if not, it's no big deal because I understand - and if others aren't of a mind to - that some guys and even gals are just about the sex.

Let's get naked and do some shit to make each other orgasm and cum - how hard is that? I mean, really, who among us doesn't "prefer" this?

I've come to have a dislike of the word "preference." It's limiting, often too nitpicky for my sensibilities. Yes, there are things I like doing and things that I don't and, yes, sometimes, I have reason to do some of the things I don't like doing... because it's sex and, well, needs must. My list of things I won't do for any reason is pretty short... because it has to be short and because I've learned that having a long list of things I won't do - and having some very specific preferences - only results in me not being able to have sex.[/SIZE][/FONT]

[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]What I prefer is to have sex and I'm not really that picky about whether the person I'm having sex with is male or female. Do I prefer women sucking my dick or men? And when I say, "Yes!" why are some people baffled to learn that I don't give a fuck who is sucking my dick as long as they're sucking it?

What kind of guy do you prefer? That's easy - the guy who isn't my idea of an asshole and one that I might have to punch in the face. What kind of dick do you prefer? Um, that'll be the one that's safe to play with and it works although I'll admit that I have a "problem" with uncut dicks but I learned to put it behind me... because it's a dick and it can be sucked.

Do I prefer to only suck dick? Yes... and no - it depends. In my life, if there's something two men can do to, for, and with each other, I've probably done it and if there's something I haven't done, it's probably because I don't want - or need - to do it. Still, I don't see this as being much of a preference than it is just a thing I've really found to my liking and is a lot of fun to do. I've fucked men and I've been fucked by men and I've either liked it or I haven't - but it's all in line with the one and only real preference:

Having sex. Being that intimate with someone while they're being that intimate with me. Eating pussy and fucking it; sucking dick, fucking a guy, being fucked by a guy. Any real preferences here? Not from where I'm sitting since it always comes down to how I'm feeling, what I think/feel I need in the moment.
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[FONT=verdana][SIZE=3]One of the things that has driven me batty has been people asking me what I prefer and in that very annoying "this or that" kind of way. Do I prefer men over women? Women more than men? If it can be asked, I've probably been asked what I prefer and being put into a position to pick one thing over the other and, to be honest, I've gotten sick and tired of trying to explain to people that, for me, being bisexual isn't an "either/or" kind of thing.

It's men [B]and[/B] women; it's pussy [B]and[/B] dick - how hard is that to understand?

Are you a top or a bottom? Well, that depends and mostly on how I'm feeling at any given moment... and I don't know why some people find this to be unusual.

Do you like sucking cock more or eating pussy? Seriously? Both are the shit as far as I'm concerned. Okay, yeah, sure - I like eating pussy more than I do sucking dick... but the differences between the two things are so slim that it's not even worth making a fuss over.

It's not about what I prefer to do: It's about whatever I want to do.[/SIZE][/FONT]