LoveLion
Apr 25, 2007, 4:14 AM
Hey everyone!
I have been gone a while. If your wondering where, I went to Europe for a month to do some backpacking with my sister who already lived over there. We visited Croatia, Hungary, England and Scotland. Some really great sights and the wildest clubs pubs and drugs Ive ever experienced. We had an amazing time. I have some photos on my Facebook, if anyone wants to take a look (there is a link in my profile).
I got a few weeks ago actually, and the reason I havent been on the last few weeks is, well, Im not sure if I am Bisexual. As of about a week before I left (as of late feb.) I have been more and more certain that I am gay. Women dont interest me in the least anymore, physically or romantically. Iv have been trying to explore my mind and thoughts and sexuality as much as possible to confirm this without a shadow of a doubt, but haven't succeeded 100% so far. I have been "testing" myself (ie, exposing my self to male and female porn, checking out both male and females, elaborate sexual and romantic fantasies about males and females) and so far the results are weighing heavily on the gay side. I know all bisexuals hate hearing it, but FOR ME (key words there) Bisexuality may have just been a transition for my accepting my homosexuality. That being said, I would also be kidding myself if I still didnt have my doubts. I would say I am about 80% sure I am gay, but that means there is 20% of uncertainty still. My sexual preference has been a slowly changing since puberty and I cant say that it is done changing. How I see it now is that it has most likely been a journey to homosexuality that it has finally reached, but then again maybe the journey isnt over.
Anyways, for that reason I have felt a little reluctant to come back, I wanted to find out for certain. But I know that I will be accepted here no matter what I, and I might be hear something that lights a spark in my brain. I guess it was also a little selfish, so Im sorry for that. But I am glad to be back now.
So, what else is new? Well, I got into my first choice of Uni. I am going to York U for Graphic Design, so I was pretty excited about that.
The major thing in my life right now is my penis, lol. For those who remember back a few months, I went to see a urologist about sexual difficulties (This was the problem: ) and found out circumcision was the best way to fix it. After much consideration and getting a second opinion, I decided I was tired of and thrust based sex hurting so I went for it. Had the surgery done a week and one day ago. The procedure itself wasnt bad, I was put under for it. The day I was still so drugged I could hardly feel it. The on day 3 the fun began. I got to take the bandage off and look at the ugliest thing I have ever seen. Stitches and swelling like you wouldnt beleive. Lots of pain for the first week. Iced it and took lots of Codeine to keep the pain away. near the end of the week my sex drive seems to have re-awaken, at least subconsciously, cuz I have been waking up with the most painful erections. Its started it all scab over the last few days which makes it even more ugly and only slightly less painful, but at least the swelling has done down alot. Im getting through it, but I havent been doing much. My friend was kind enough to lend me his New Nintendo Wii video game system, so I have been sleeping, watching TV and figuring out how to play the nintendo Wii as my Wii heals. Got out of the house today and am hoping to get some more activity back in my life as it has been quite boring. but it still hurts when it touches anything so another week untill I can walk regularly and do more. The recovery time is suposed to be 6 or 7 weeks, so Iv got a while to go still. Anyways Im sure you all didnt really want to hear about that, lol.
So yea, thats what I have been up to and now I am back, which is good. Glad to be back. :)
I have been gone a while. If your wondering where, I went to Europe for a month to do some backpacking with my sister who already lived over there. We visited Croatia, Hungary, England and Scotland. Some really great sights and the wildest clubs pubs and drugs Ive ever experienced. We had an amazing time. I have some photos on my Facebook, if anyone wants to take a look (there is a link in my profile).
I got a few weeks ago actually, and the reason I havent been on the last few weeks is, well, Im not sure if I am Bisexual. As of about a week before I left (as of late feb.) I have been more and more certain that I am gay. Women dont interest me in the least anymore, physically or romantically. Iv have been trying to explore my mind and thoughts and sexuality as much as possible to confirm this without a shadow of a doubt, but haven't succeeded 100% so far. I have been "testing" myself (ie, exposing my self to male and female porn, checking out both male and females, elaborate sexual and romantic fantasies about males and females) and so far the results are weighing heavily on the gay side. I know all bisexuals hate hearing it, but FOR ME (key words there) Bisexuality may have just been a transition for my accepting my homosexuality. That being said, I would also be kidding myself if I still didnt have my doubts. I would say I am about 80% sure I am gay, but that means there is 20% of uncertainty still. My sexual preference has been a slowly changing since puberty and I cant say that it is done changing. How I see it now is that it has most likely been a journey to homosexuality that it has finally reached, but then again maybe the journey isnt over.
Anyways, for that reason I have felt a little reluctant to come back, I wanted to find out for certain. But I know that I will be accepted here no matter what I, and I might be hear something that lights a spark in my brain. I guess it was also a little selfish, so Im sorry for that. But I am glad to be back now.
So, what else is new? Well, I got into my first choice of Uni. I am going to York U for Graphic Design, so I was pretty excited about that.
The major thing in my life right now is my penis, lol. For those who remember back a few months, I went to see a urologist about sexual difficulties (This was the problem: ) and found out circumcision was the best way to fix it. After much consideration and getting a second opinion, I decided I was tired of and thrust based sex hurting so I went for it. Had the surgery done a week and one day ago. The procedure itself wasnt bad, I was put under for it. The day I was still so drugged I could hardly feel it. The on day 3 the fun began. I got to take the bandage off and look at the ugliest thing I have ever seen. Stitches and swelling like you wouldnt beleive. Lots of pain for the first week. Iced it and took lots of Codeine to keep the pain away. near the end of the week my sex drive seems to have re-awaken, at least subconsciously, cuz I have been waking up with the most painful erections. Its started it all scab over the last few days which makes it even more ugly and only slightly less painful, but at least the swelling has done down alot. Im getting through it, but I havent been doing much. My friend was kind enough to lend me his New Nintendo Wii video game system, so I have been sleeping, watching TV and figuring out how to play the nintendo Wii as my Wii heals. Got out of the house today and am hoping to get some more activity back in my life as it has been quite boring. but it still hurts when it touches anything so another week untill I can walk regularly and do more. The recovery time is suposed to be 6 or 7 weeks, so Iv got a while to go still. Anyways Im sure you all didnt really want to hear about that, lol.
So yea, thats what I have been up to and now I am back, which is good. Glad to be back. :)